these are the words he shud have sed

I never meant to hurt your heart this way, sooner or later
There’d be someone else who’d stay

grabe.. ang saket pa den! akala ko wala na e, meron pa pala, napaiyak mo na naman ako e! pero hangang ngaun na lang yan alam ko malapet na.. yes u will always have that special place in my heart, thats what's first lov are for but thats it. i will treasure all our memories together and use it as my learning ground. the next time i fall in love, i will know better. i will never regret loving you and i will nevr forget the 4 years we spent together.. go on and be happy, i hope i helped u become a better person, i hope she is worth leaving me and huting me for..

COMES THE DAWN

After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to understand that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head held high and your eyes open,
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
You learn to build your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
And future's have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns,
If you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure,
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and learn and you learn
With every goodbye, you learn.

-Veronica a. Shoffstall

happy 4th of july everyone!

i jes came home from the mall after the bbq after bbq at my uncle's house. i had to walk off all th steak and ribs that i had. guess no dinner and breakfast tom lolz.. thank God its not raining..yet. im plannin to take a dip in the pool later on since i have nutin to do and too lazy to go out nut im goin out tonite for brian's bday and so i will finally meet his infamous girlfren. wonder how thats gonna be like.

on another note, i have the apt all for myself coz the bitch is in orlando wit her boifren..

im tryin to decide whether to move out and get my own apt. why? because my roommate is a BITCH and we're supposed to be related.. lolz.. ive been having issues with her for the past 2 years that we've lived together and honestly, i cant take it anymore.

here's some of the things that we argue about

1. her boifren is ALWAYS in our apt. he practically lives with us. that basically means theres another person usin electricity, water, internet.

2. because her boifren is always here, i cant walk around our apt naked. yes this really bothers me. not that id like to be naked all the time but when i forget my towel in my room and im drippin wet after takin a shower, i would like to be able to walk normally and not have to run to my room to get it.

3. she expects me to wash the dishes that she and her boifren used.

4. she's a light sleeper so everytime i have people over which is maybe once a month, she gets irritated and yells at them (we have the same grp of frns) but when its her boifren's frens, she expects me to deal with their noise.

5. she freakin hogs the tv

6. she wears my clothes all the time. and my coach bags!! ..without askin me first.. ive recently started doin the same thing.

7. she got the room with the walk in closet and she had the gall to put her things in one of the closets that we decided would be mine.

aaarrgghhhh.... its always been a love-hate relationship between us but lately, its been gettin on my nerves so i try to avoid her. i dunno, our lease is up on nov and ive been askin around for 1 BR apts or studio apts but i dunno. having a roommate does have some advantages coz we can always split the bill but im jes sick of her! whatever, at least i have a few months to tink about it and look for a new apt if anytin..